Throughout my work, I portray and project myself onto the animal as a
means to explore the damaged psyche while also honoring actual gestures
and experiences of the animal. The animal is rendered in isolation, so
as to focus inward on absence of connections and unfulfilled desires. I
attempt to give an intangible force a voice through a subject that is
essentially unable to speak for itself. I want both conversations, about
the human condition and the animal condition. The approximated
representations create relatability between the work and the viewer, and
the work and myself that is necessary. The animals remain essentially
true to form and gesture, not exaggerated or intentionally
anthropomorphized.
My tortured process is informed by human
emotion, by loneliness, desire and obsession. These emotions are
translated in the neurosis of my process. The obsessive mark making, or
means of rendering the animal form, mimics the fur while also being
emblematic of the depth and complexity of the animal and it’s emotive
form. It also becomes emblematic of the complexity of human emotions.
The lack of environment is a suggestion toward a mentally and
psychologically charged space; a space that alludes to existentialist
views on the human condition such as lack, loss, disconnect, and
uncertainty. This space allows a connection on an emotional human level
by depicting the animals out of their original context into a negative
space that becomes introspective and internal. The psychological
implications of this space are both discomforting and familiar; there is
at once both a presence and an absence.
The intimacy and
empathetic nature of my process speaks to my fidelity towards the animal
as emotive and autonomous as much as my fidelity towards the expression
of my emotions of my personal experiences speaks to the pains of the
human condition. It is in this duality that there is room to think about
psychological and social issues concerning both the human and the
animal.